Rest in peace,mum's.

Today is 11th July 2011. Which means is my beloved mummy's one year anniversary. Mum,do you know how much we miss you? How are you in the other world? To be honest,sometimes i really feel to leave this world and go the other world to gather with you. But,i know i can't be so selfish. A daddy for me to take care,an elder and an younger brother that i need to be with. Although today is your first year anniversary,but i never stop myself from missing you. Every time when i think of you,my tears will roll down. Without you,my life really became very tough. Hard to go through but i know i must be strong. Strong is easy to say but really hard to do. I share my feelings with friends,with my teacher and others. They can hear what i said but no ones will understand how it feels because most of them are perfect. I am not blaming others about your leaving. I am no blaming others when they can't be my listener. But,what i want them to know is. APPRECIATE people's around them very well. Or else,if one day they lost their loves one,regret and cry until eyes become blind also not use. It's too late. Mum,do you still remember our last memory? You bring us to cinema. The moment and every memory be with you will always stay fresh in my mind. I know i should bless for your decision but i am really sorry for saying that. I can't! Until now,sometimes whenever i think of you,my heart never stop from missing,my eyes never stop from rolling tears. I need to face those people that kept ask me this and that. It really makes me reminds of my past. I know i can't stop them from asking but since it is past,why don't they just keep their mouth shut? I know not only i miss you. Daddy,siblings,cousins,grandparents and your friends miss you too. But,no one can miss you more than your child. Grandma and grandpa will miss you lots too. So,since you choose this road. I really hope you will be happy in the other world. Put down everything. Find your own happiness at the other world. Don't worry about us,we will take care ourselves very well. If you really miss us,please appear in our dreams and at least let us know you are fine there. We are different world but don't worry. Our heart will always together. Mum,i love you. Wishing you all the best and take care yourself. We will miss you. Now and always.